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(i ran out of elements on my page, idk if this is a good workaround lol, but people wanted this rick roll page to stay eheh >w<)
how im feeling? (3514 - 2026/04/30)
(TW: a bit dark)
(hugs appreciated. just good to be heard)
i guess scared. its not as bad as it was.. ive found some peace. im given more kindness than i deserve. i feel lucky to be kept around. im still scared a little.. but i will be good.ive focused a lot on my work, and its helped me to feel useful, somewhat. learned to lean on a few friends in this anxious time, opening up some, after hiding everything inside for years. its so hard to adjust..my health has been very bad.. worse than usual. im anxious most of the time, and i cant eat much, anymore. im getting very thin, and weak. worse than usual. its getting hard to move. my heart pounds fast. i feel so alone, and scared.
how im feeling? (3562 - 2026/06/17)
(TW: dum vent)
(thank you for listening, at least TvT)
i was kinda starting to do better for a while.. kinda. i guess id figured out how to move on, but with sleeping so little, my anxiety spiked a lot TvT
i was recovering, id even started to eat again, but my sleep has been a huge mess when i felt worthless and i fell behind even more on my work. i recently had an anxiety attack.. i freaked out and and spoke badly, hurt someone who matters a lot to me TvT.i worry i ruined everything. i guess im lucky i even get one more chance, but i feel ashamed to even talk to them after this. i guess ill be the best i can be, give space, and take my anxiety meds, so i never do something like this again T~Ti didnt even fix the problem i was anxious about, i just made everything worse when i was finally being starting to be good TvT. i acted like such a mentally ill child.
